In this autoethnographic essay, the author explores her struggles and desires to learn about her life prior to adoption. She portrays her journey to search for her beginning pieces of her adoption narrative by an assessment of “narrative inheritance” (Goodall, 2006), attempts to reframe her adoption narrative, and reflects on how her adoption narrative changed over a period of time. The author highlights major events of her search and provides meaning and understanding to her experience. The author concludes by providing her reflections of her search and attempts to redefine her adoption journey and what it means to be an adoptee.


Autoethnography, Intercountry Adoption, Adoption, Narrative Inheritance, Birth Search


Prema wishes to thank Dr. Tony Adams, Ron Chenail, and the anonymous reviewer for their assistance with this manuscript.

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