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Amber Hockaday is a Junior majoring in legal studies and political science. She is a part of NSU’s ROTC program. Hockaday is originally from Texas but moved when she was 8 years old. Amber has lived in Spain, Ghana, Namibia, and South Africa until moving back to the US to go to NSU.

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"I was sexually assaulted March 27th, 2021, around 3 am. I pretended like it was something I wanted, that maybe I wasn’t vocal enough in expressing that I didn’t want it, and maybe I acted like I enjoyed it, and that sent a mixed message. I didn’t want to tell anyone because I was afraid that I would be blamed. I had been in fight-or-flight mode for months without realizing it. I remember all the details of that night, but it no longer consumes me with overwhelming fear, it gets better, and this poem is proof of that."



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