What inspired me to work on the female form was the belief that our minds can create our reality. Most of my life I had suffered from morbid obesity - reaching at one point 288 lbs. Most likely my body weight reached higher numbers, but I refused to step on the scale after observing the dreaded 288! I was suffering from low self esteem, depression, severe low back pain, tendinitis, plantar fasciitis and several other "itis" when I realized that the most powerful tool that I had available was my brain. If I was going to turn my life around, I had to learn how to master my body and re-create myself. I needed a visual image of how my new body was going to be and while imagining it gave me a good idea, creating it on canvas helped me to send out a message to the Universe.
The sketch of Birth of Venus is an evolutionary follow-up of The Bather. She is more relaxed, has better defined forms and is more comfortable with herself. She trusts the ocean to support her new life and now she faces me - symbolizing that we have accomplished a great deal together. The mountains (obstacles) that kept her away from her true form, were now conquered, so they are out of view. Venus is not finished yet reminding that I have not yet materialized the female body that I have painted. I need to keep on working on this life long project.
"Birth of Venus,"
be Still: Vol. 1
, Article 36.
Available at: https://nsuworks.nova.edu/bestill/vol1/iss1/36